by Jeff | Jun 5, 2019 | Not Proof Read - 1st Draft, Personal Journey, Vanilla
Monday was the night of the big switchover on the stressful work contract I’ve been using to face my mental health and return into life as a productive employable worjer. The weeks preceding have been a strange mixtures of highs and lows emotionally as I...
by Jeff | Jun 5, 2019 | Not Proof Read - 1st Draft, Personal Journey, Vanilla
Today is a day that will test my new skills. It’s a depressing cold, gray Wednesday. It’s 10am and I’ve already experienced a few low points and terrifying moments of failure already. The kind of things that stand up and remind me the good streak...
by Jeff | May 21, 2019 | Not Proof Read - 1st Draft, Personal Journey, Vanilla
I’ve been blogging on my bus and subway rides as a good way to work out my feelings and mindset in between therapy. It’s helpful, and I recommend it, even if you don’t really tell anybody about the blogs. They can still be therapeutic. It’s...
by Jeff | May 2, 2019 | Not Proof Read - 1st Draft, Orange Jeff Show, Personal Journey, Second Life
I’m just the right amount of the high to blog, and 9:36pm on a Thursday. I am doing my best not to panic, and not to freak out, because I feel a failure cominhg on, and I’m not sure what to do about it. Noteable this week. Phyciatrist on Monday. Weird. Not...
by Jeff | Apr 24, 2019 | Personal, Vanilla
I woke up from another dream at around 7am today, a Wednesday, but it was a fresh awake wake-up. The first I’ve had since my medication screw up almost 3 weeks ago. I stood up, and didn’t lay back down again. I sat at the computer and started my morning work routine...